Category Archives: abuse

The Obituary I Would Have Written 10 Years Ago

I saw this in the news today and it tugged on my heart a bit. I feel for these adult children of an abusive mother. Had my abuser passed away 10 years ago, I might have done the same thing. … Continue reading

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Seeking the Approval of Others (as a way to escape approving of myself)

I can remember in 5th grade when Mrs. White hit me over the head with a magazine for asking for my missing homework assignments, again. Now I can freely admit that I was a hyperactive child and thus a nightmare … Continue reading

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I H8 Ang-Zahy-I-Tee

I am about 9 or 10 weeks off Effexor now. Now that I am non-medicated, it seems I have massive anxiety. Lucky me!!! It has been an anxious week, for sure. More than that, I realize now that I have … Continue reading

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My Relationship With Music (How Music Saved My Life) Part 1 of 3

My Background: My father and mother split up before I was a year old. In a court battle that lasted years, my mother was given custody of my brother and me. My father was given supervised visitation. Those visitations were … Continue reading

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Being Unafraid of Pain

This was in my inbox today. This is they kind of stuff I have been learning in counseling. You don’t have to be afraid of pain. If it’s going to be there, you can let it be there—but don’t let … Continue reading

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Serendipity: One Last Thought In June

I was driving home from work the other day thinking about my blog. I was asking myself if I was helping anybody, or just using the blog as an anonymous forum to bitch, for misery loves company, as the saying … Continue reading

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…I Shot a Man in Reno Just to Watch Him Die…

1) Did you ever see the movie Duel? In the movie, a man (Dennis Weaver) is driving on a desolate desert road on a business trip and is being harassed by the driver of an 18 wheeler. As the movie … Continue reading

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