Category Archives: introspection

That Moment…

There is that moment when you realize that the game is rigged, the rules are one-sided (and not favoring you), you have lost, and there is nothing you can do about it? Today is a day like that. I find … Continue reading

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Living in the Day

I have come to realize that I have had a “living for the weekend” mindset for quite some time, maybe the whole of my conscience life . Of course, I feel this way because I get to hang out and … Continue reading

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Why Modern-Day Christians Piss Me Off

  My grandmother always claimed to be a Christian. She kept a bible on the table next to the chair she sat in. It was a red bible.   My grandmother wasn’t a nice woman, though you would not know … Continue reading

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When I Feel Like This

Tonight I am full of self-doubt and it is pushing my depression buttons. I am feeling this without the cloud of Effexor. I am feeling it raw. Tonight I feel stuck in a rut. I am fat. Really. I need … Continue reading

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My Relationship With Music (How Music Saved My Life) Part 3 of 3

Music Today Along the way, I have tried to kill this thing. My battle with depression has coincided with the music going silent throughout the years. The downside is the worst pain. Again, trying to explain this pain to people … Continue reading

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My Relationship With Music (How Music Saved My Life) Part 2 of 3

Music: How I Survived My counselor said two things to me that gave me great pause: 1) Mine is the worst case of abuse she ever had in her office, and 2) She does not know how I get out … Continue reading

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The Nature of My Brain (Why I Suck At Making and Keeping Personal Goals), an Opera in Eb

Here it is, a two post day. I had a lot of stuff on my brain this week, and wanted to share it all. I have an ADD brain. There, I said it. I am not sure if it was … Continue reading

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