Author Archives: ~Drew

About ~Drew

I am a survivor of childhood torture. Each day, I put one foot in front of the other, moving forward. To do any less would spell my own destruction. My music/poetry/prose deal with the devastating effect of this kind of abuse on a human being: me. My experiences/thoughts/ideas/misconceptions are exposed here for all to see. Here. I am lain bare, naked, hidden only be the cloak of anonymity.

Remission and Invitation

During my annual physical last week, my doctor asked me how I was doing with my depression. I said, “Doc, I gotta tell you, its been about 2 years since my last depressive episode. The longest I had gone before … Continue reading

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Gravity and Air Pressure

I start here and go back there. I start there and end up back here Again. Too much to take in. There’s too much to take in. Information crowds atop  my ignorance And pushes down on my body. It is … Continue reading

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The Obituary I Would Have Written 10 Years Ago

I saw this in the news today and it tugged on my heart a bit. I feel for these adult children of an abusive mother. Had my abuser passed away 10 years ago, I might have done the same thing. … Continue reading

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I am Confident I Lack Confidence

According to Wikipedia: Confidence is generally described as a state of being certain either that a hypothesis or prediction is correct or that a chosen course of action is the best or most effective. Self-confidence is having confidence in oneself. … Continue reading

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Patience, or Lack Thereof

Patience, or Lack Thereof.

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Sayonara Depression

I have not been depressed in 6 months despite coming off my meds. Why? Meditation. Regular meditation. That is all. ps. I took classes at a Buddhist center in town…it helped!

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Seeking the Approval of Others (as a way to escape approving of myself)

I can remember in 5th grade when Mrs. White hit me over the head with a magazine for asking for my missing homework assignments, again. Now I can freely admit that I was a hyperactive child and thus a nightmare … Continue reading

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