Category Archives: psychology

I H8 Ang-Zahy-I-Tee

I am about 9 or 10 weeks off Effexor now. Now that I am non-medicated, it seems I have massive anxiety. Lucky me!!! It has been an anxious week, for sure. More than that, I realize now that I have … Continue reading

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It Puts the Lotion on the Skin……

Since coming off Effexor six weeks ago, I have begun experiencing all sorts of interesting new and old sensations and emotions. I’m sure I will write about them all, but today I wanted to address one physical manifestation of emotions … Continue reading

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When I Feel Like This

Tonight I am full of self-doubt and it is pushing my depression buttons. I am feeling this without the cloud of Effexor. I am feeling it raw. Tonight I feel stuck in a rut. I am fat. Really. I need … Continue reading

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Serenity Now!

The best advise I can give to the victims of narcissists is the serenity prayer:   God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the … Continue reading

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…And When I Was 14, I Suddenly Woke Up…

That’s right. When I was 14 years old, I suddenly awoke out of the fog of my childhood, took a deep breath, and said, “what the hell!” It could have been a scene in a twilight zone episode. It was … Continue reading

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One Step Beyond

It has been 17 days since my last Effexor. The brain-zaps, though not changing in frequency, have lessened in intensity, giving me some relief. The physical side of the equation is coming into line. This week’s change is on the … Continue reading

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They’re Feeding Us Shit on a Shingle!

How many morality tales have we seen in our lives? Between books, movies, and TV, we have all seen thousands, and they are all bullshit, my friend. I know that sounds like a harsh way to look at things, but … Continue reading

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