Tag Archives: Psychology

I H8 Ang-Zahy-I-Tee

I am about 9 or 10 weeks off Effexor now. Now that I am non-medicated, it seems I have massive anxiety. Lucky me!!! It has been an anxious week, for sure. More than that, I realize now that I have … Continue reading

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It Puts the Lotion on the Skin……

Since coming off Effexor six weeks ago, I have begun experiencing all sorts of interesting new and old sensations and emotions. I’m sure I will write about them all, but today I wanted to address one physical manifestation of emotions … Continue reading

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They’re Feeding Us Shit on a Shingle!

How many morality tales have we seen in our lives? Between books, movies, and TV, we have all seen thousands, and they are all bullshit, my friend. I know that sounds like a harsh way to look at things, but … Continue reading

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The Greatest Fear of All

Children raised by NPD parents have one great fear, being found out: being found to have adverse feelings about the abuse, having the audacity of calling it abuse in the first place, and/or seeking help for the psychological damages of … Continue reading

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And Away We GO!!

I am three days into a 9-12 week journey to come off Effexor. I detail the issues involved here. I am taking 1/2 my previous dose, and will do so for 2-4 weeks when my dose will 1/2 again.  The … Continue reading

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How Christianity Played a Role in My Abuse

When discussing child discipline from the pulpit, most pastor/preacher/reverend/priest types will quote the following bible verses:  “He who spareth the rod hateth his son: but he that loveth him correcteth him betimes” (Proverbs 13:24) and “Withhold not correction from a … Continue reading

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          I learned to Compartmentalize My life At a very Early age.   I learned to make Honeycomb in which To deposit each pain, To keep separate From every other pain.   Little walls were built~ … Continue reading

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