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My Relationship With Music (How Music Saved My Life) Part 3 of 3

Music Today Along the way, I have tried to kill this thing. My battle with depression has coincided with the music going silent throughout the years. The downside is the worst pain. Again, trying to explain this pain to people … Continue reading

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Being Unafraid of Pain

This was in my inbox today. This is they kind of stuff I have been learning in counseling. You don’t have to be afraid of pain. If it’s going to be there, you can let it be there—but don’t let … Continue reading

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…And When I Was 14, I Suddenly Woke Up…

That’s right. When I was 14 years old, I suddenly awoke out of the fog of my childhood, took a deep breath, and said, “what the hell!” It could have been a scene in a twilight zone episode. It was … Continue reading

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Frustrated About Frustration

A Keen Observation by My Wife: During a discussion the other day, my wife said that she has noticed me getting frustrated about being frustrated (when I get frustrated). This is a very astute observation: I get mad at myself … Continue reading

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They’re Feeding Us Shit on a Shingle!

How many morality tales have we seen in our lives? Between books, movies, and TV, we have all seen thousands, and they are all bullshit, my friend. I know that sounds like a harsh way to look at things, but … Continue reading

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The Greatest Fear of All

Children raised by NPD parents have one great fear, being found out: being found to have adverse feelings about the abuse, having the audacity of calling it abuse in the first place, and/or seeking help for the psychological damages of … Continue reading

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This is the Good Stuff!!!!!

Ready for a ride???  I just read Characteristics of Narcissists by Anonymous and pow! was I ever right back in it again. This is as close as I have ever seen to a complete picture of my childhood. A few … Continue reading

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