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Remission and Invitation

During my annual physical last week, my doctor asked me how I was doing with my depression. I said, “Doc, I gotta tell you, its been about 2 years since my last depressive episode. The longest I had gone before … Continue reading

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I am Confident I Lack Confidence

According to Wikipedia: Confidence is generally described as a state of being certain either that a hypothesis or prediction is correct or that a chosen course of action is the best or most effective. Self-confidence is having confidence in oneself. … Continue reading

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I H8 Ang-Zahy-I-Tee

I am about 9 or 10 weeks off Effexor now. Now that I am non-medicated, it seems I have massive anxiety. Lucky me!!! It has been an anxious week, for sure. More than that, I realize now that I have … Continue reading

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My Relationship With Music (How Music Saved My Life) Part 3 of 3

Music Today Along the way, I have tried to kill this thing. My battle with depression has coincided with the music going silent throughout the years. The downside is the worst pain. Again, trying to explain this pain to people … Continue reading

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Being Unafraid of Pain

This was in my inbox today. This is they kind of stuff I have been learning in counseling. You don’t have to be afraid of pain. If it’s going to be there, you can let it be there—but don’t let … Continue reading

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…And When I Was 14, I Suddenly Woke Up…

That’s right. When I was 14 years old, I suddenly awoke out of the fog of my childhood, took a deep breath, and said, “what the hell!” It could have been a scene in a twilight zone episode. It was … Continue reading

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Frustrated About Frustration

A Keen Observation by My Wife: During a discussion the other day, my wife said that she has noticed me getting frustrated about being frustrated (when I get frustrated). This is a very astute observation: I get mad at myself … Continue reading

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