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I am Confident I Lack Confidence

Posted on March 21, 2013 by ~drew

According to Wikipedia: Confidence is generally described as a state of being certain either that a hypothesis or prediction is correct or that a chosen course of action is the best or most effective. Self-confidence is having confidence in oneself. … Continue reading →

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Seeking the Approval of Others (as a way to escape approving of myself)

Posted on November 18, 2012 by ~drew

I can remember in 5th grade when Mrs. White hit me over the head with a magazine for asking for my missing homework assignments, again. Now I can freely admit that I was a hyperactive child and thus a nightmare … Continue reading →

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It Puts the Lotion on the Skin……

Posted on July 14, 2012 by ~drew

Since coming off Effexor six weeks ago, I have begun experiencing all sorts of interesting new and old sensations and emotions. I’m sure I will write about them all, but today I wanted to address one physical manifestation of emotions … Continue reading →

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My Relationship With Music (How Music Saved My Life) Part 3 of 3

Posted on July 6, 2012 by ~drew

Music Today Along the way, I have tried to kill this thing. My battle with depression has coincided with the music going silent throughout the years. The downside is the worst pain. Again, trying to explain this pain to people … Continue reading →

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My Relationship With Music (How Music Saved My Life) Part 2 of 3

Posted on July 6, 2012 by ~drew

Music: How I Survived My counselor said two things to me that gave me great pause: 1) Mine is the worst case of abuse she ever had in her office, and 2) She does not know how I get out … Continue reading →

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Being Unafraid of Pain

Posted on July 1, 2012 by ~drew

This was in my inbox today. This is they kind of stuff I have been learning in counseling. You don’t have to be afraid of pain. If it’s going to be there, you can let it be there—but don’t let … Continue reading →

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…And When I Was 14, I Suddenly Woke Up…

Posted on June 22, 2012 by ~drew

That’s right. When I was 14 years old, I suddenly awoke out of the fog of my childhood, took a deep breath, and said, “what the hell!” It could have been a scene in a twilight zone episode. It was … Continue reading →

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These “holidays” can be excruciating for those that suffered abuse at the hands of a parent. For those of you with a shitty father, this one is for you!

Posted on June 17, 2012 by ~drew | 1 Comment

Giddy-up Trigger!

Posted on October 8, 2011 by ~drew

If I have learned two things in my 42 years of existence they are these: never say “damn, how could things get worse,” or, “things are really great right now.” If you do, you are guaranteeing yourself to have a … Continue reading →

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Emotional Seppuku

Posted on September 21, 2011 by ~drew

I had a very good week, as far as my therapist was concerned. In hindsight, I would have to agree. Even the “triggered” incident was handled in a different way, one that I learned in therapy. Also, my wife is … Continue reading →

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