Monthly Archives: July 2012

Foes, and Other Assholes

Posted on July 20, 2012 by ~drew

    I have been heavy of heart this week. I will not go into the details, but the details brought on larger topics for my brain to digest. As I write this, please do not think I am taking … Continue reading →

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It Puts the Lotion on the Skin……

Posted on July 14, 2012 by ~drew

Since coming off Effexor six weeks ago, I have begun experiencing all sorts of interesting new and old sensations and emotions. I’m sure I will write about them all, but today I wanted to address one physical manifestation of emotions … Continue reading →

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When I Feel Like This

Posted on July 10, 2012 by ~drew

Tonight I am full of self-doubt and it is pushing my depression buttons. I am feeling this without the cloud of Effexor. I am feeling it raw. Tonight I feel stuck in a rut. I am fat. Really. I need … Continue reading →

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My Relationship With Music (How Music Saved My Life) Part 3 of 3

Posted on July 6, 2012 by ~drew

Music Today Along the way, I have tried to kill this thing. My battle with depression has coincided with the music going silent throughout the years. The downside is the worst pain. Again, trying to explain this pain to people … Continue reading →

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My Relationship With Music (How Music Saved My Life) Part 2 of 3

Posted on July 6, 2012 by ~drew

Music: How I Survived My counselor said two things to me that gave me great pause: 1) Mine is the worst case of abuse she ever had in her office, and 2) She does not know how I get out … Continue reading →

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My Relationship With Music (How Music Saved My Life) Part 1 of 3

Posted on July 6, 2012 by ~drew

My Background: My father and mother split up before I was a year old. In a court battle that lasted years, my mother was given custody of my brother and me. My father was given supervised visitation. Those visitations were … Continue reading →

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Being Unafraid of Pain

Posted on July 1, 2012 by ~drew

This was in my inbox today. This is they kind of stuff I have been learning in counseling. You don’t have to be afraid of pain. If it’s going to be there, you can let it be there—but don’t let … Continue reading →

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