U Keep Walking Forward

This is a soliloquy I wrote for a screenplay. The story is semi-autobiographical and centers around a character living with the effects of C-PTSD.

I’m imperfect. This statement is not meant
as an excuse; it is how I was raised.  The
expectation of perfection hung over my head,
always. And I always knew that I was never
going to reach it.  Church reinforced that we
are all imperfect in the face of God.  We can
never satisfy his holy criteria. We can never
reach the perfection that he demands…but
there is an out…a safety valve…[sarcastically]
JESUS CHRIST. Jesus came and died for us
and became intercessor.  Fucking A!  But that
is all bullshit.  I know that now.  I knew it then.
  And I knew it at home especially, when dear
old mom, “only demanded perfection.”  So I
was born a loser.  And I knew really fucking
early on.  Imperfect…

View original post 22 more words

Advertisements

About ~Drew

I am a survivor of childhood torture. Each day, I put one foot in front of the other, moving forward. To do any less would spell my own destruction. My music/poetry/prose deal with the devastating effect of this kind of abuse on a human being: me. My experiences/thoughts/ideas/misconceptions are exposed here for all to see. Here. I am lain bare, naked, hidden only be the cloak of anonymity.
This entry was posted in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink.

What say you?

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s