Monthly Archives: October 2010

Lost

Posted on October 30, 2010 by ~drew

Image via Wikipedia     Oft times I delve Into the deep of my mind, In search of some sort Of answers to the questions  I seek.   Swirling around in there Is a mass of confused chaos– A redundant oxymoron … Continue reading →

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The Green Girl and the Coffee Bean

Posted on October 29, 2010 by ~drew

Green locks, cloven hoof, desire, The fields open wide, expansive, The dancing blades are anchored in the earth, Rooted, restrained, reaching up to cumulus, cirrus.   A hill covered by millions, green tree On red hill.  Two watching for food, … Continue reading →

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Repeat One Vs. Repeat All

Posted on October 29, 2010 by ~drew

Living with C-PTSD AND major depression is a rough road to travel. There are, however, days and weeks when life is pretty good. And then… the storms hit. This is how I live my day to day: I know the … Continue reading →

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Cosmic Paperweight

Posted on October 26, 2010 by ~drew

I travel in reverse, and the span of a year back-pedals, I travel back to affront that which gnaws at me like acid, The valley opens up before me, the seat of fear, the landscape          of sorrow, The crossing … Continue reading →

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Swimmer

Posted on October 20, 2010 by ~drew

I swim here, and the man Outside speaks again so that I can no longer ignore his Incessant, constant urgings.   “You young fool!” he screams,  “You move forward With no doubt as if you Were a fucking God.” And … Continue reading →

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C-PTSD and Me Part 3

Posted on October 16, 2010 by ~drew

     My counselor said two things to me that put into perspective how serious my C-PTSD and depression is: 1) Yours is the worst case of abuse and neglect I have ever seen, 2) I don’t know how you … Continue reading →

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Patterns

Posted on October 16, 2010 by ~drew

    Sometimes the words are not forthcoming when the urge to express is so weighing upon me. In those moments, sometimes I push through the moment and a poem comes anyway. For an artist with depression, these moments are … Continue reading →

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Smooth Sailing (to be read in one breath)

Posted on October 14, 2010 by ~drew

I am riding along smoothly like a boy on a bicycle who is riding on his own without training wheels for the first time and is so excited that he has accomplished the impossible and wants to make sure that … Continue reading →

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Dialog Between Me And…

Posted on October 14, 2010 by ~drew

Written in 1996. This poem demonstrates a fragmented conversation inside my own head…. search for self? I think so! You are fixed and still,             and i am; You are given to grief and disillusionment,             oh, there it is; … Continue reading →

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I?

Posted on October 14, 2010 by ~drew

This poem from 1996 takes a look at my lack of self and feeling like an outsider in the world. How many times must I write the word “I” Before I understand what the hell I am? How many days … Continue reading →

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